New Thoughts...

Tiring morning but haha, when i was reading my friend's blog this morning, its kinda nice to know that someone has read ur blog & was making comments on hers as well although it wasnt so much of her agreeing with me... =) and not forgetting those who left valuable comments on my post as well.. thank you thank you... =D

Just 2 nights ago, i received a somewhat familiar sms - "R u awake?" from my friend who is suffering from a serious depression relapse.. the 1st time when i called her after getting the same msg (though i was dead tired..), she was crying on the other end of the phone & trying to speak at the same time for almost 1hr before she decided to slam down the phone on me thou am not sure if i had said the wrong things...

do i lack of the patience nowadays or am i just afraid & worried? when i received her sms that night, i actually hesitated to call her bcos am not sure if am going to get the same response & not sure if am up to it (since i now head to bed quite early after the change of job)...

i understand & sympathise the situation that she is in & of cos, to a certain degree agrees with her that this society is not that forgiving to patient like her who does need a job to support her & her medical fees especially she just lost her job... again...

i know deep down inside that she desperately needs my help and i cant possibly leave her in a lurch.. but on the other hand, am helpless & dont know how about going to help her & get her out of this situation... just worried that i'll worsen her condition... SIGH (big time!)

Some1 mentioned before that this is an emotional blackmail but i disagree cos she just needed some1... just some1 to give her the attention & comfort to tell her that she is not alone in this world... if she is well & fine, she dont need my immediate attention...

I hope (sincerely) she'll be able to overcome & stand on her feet again... she needs to overcome this with her efforts & determination...