Touching Moments...

Yesterday was Felicia's wedding - 2nd girl in our JC class got hitched! 1 more coming in Nov end of this year.. Ah..I see it coming - stop that question in your head ("When's your turn?") Nope, not any in the near future and maybe never (?)..

Anyway that's not the focus! She was dressed in her white off-shoulder gown, radiant smile on her face.. A woman is always the prettiest on her wedding day.. I suddenly can feel the happiness around her..

The most touching moment was when she and Alan were exchanging their vows to be husband and wife.. Goosh, I almost teared! Soooo touching.. Oh my! She is no longer the funky, funny jc friend anymore.. She is someone's wife, someone's daughter-in-law and someone's mum soon..

What can a woman ask for? A doting husband, i suppose.. What can a friend ask for? That her gf is well-taken care of..

Babe, take care and stay happy, ya... You have my blessings!

Am not philosophical.. Am just a "dumb blonde"..

Today is another Saturday but somehow it got a little brighter bcos of an unexpected sms I received in the afternoon. It was a sms from a friend in US, telling me where he is now & how's things with me. Althou' it is a simple msg, I felt touched. You may think it is just a msg & why would I be touched by it & probably he would have msg to couple of people. I guessed it just warmed my heart cos exactly that we're normal friends, I never expect him to msg me far from US. Anyway it was really kind of him.. I am looking forward to his next msg on his next destination & adventure. =)

I'm sure alot people have noticed the advert stickers on the bus. Did you realised that the stickers have got very tiny little holes? Nothing strange in particular. I was on a bus on my way to work then I was attempting to look out of the window through these little holes. I found it so difficult to see things, the outside world seems blurred & gloomy.. When I looked up (area not covered), the sky is so clear and blue..

Then I realised that sometimes, I failed to see the whole picture cos I've been focusing on the many little problems & hence, I often get confused and unhappy. Actually if I were to step back, the world is still sunny & bright.. BUT (kekeke) said is alot easier than done...

Friends feedback that my blog is too long & needed time to digest.. Guys/gals, thank you for making the time & effort to read through my blog.. I'm really (x2) not a philosophical person.. Things that I've pondered & written here are really common things that you would have also thought about it too. Just that I have chosen to verbalise it in words rather than letting it gone with the wind & share my thoughts with my friends.. Sometimes it is interesting to see how your views changes over time & I guess it is a good way to know how I am doing through what I have written (?).. [I know things I wrote can be quite depressing & pessimistic lah... =P]

I seems to have more entries recently but it is just becos I've more time for myself & been talking quite abit to friends.. But am enjoying it & hope you enjoy reading too.. =)

Undo to others what you want others to undo to you

Can't believe it!!! I am sick again... Argh!!!! Am running a fever of 38.1 while writing this... Don't curse me,k?.. I took medicine already, so while waiting for it to take effect, decided to jot down something with my thrombing headache...

"Undo to others what you want others to undo to you" sounds easy eh? But not really so... Many of us understand the meaning but how many people can practice that? @ certain point in life, we may be blinded in a folly's moment & did something to someone which we hope others will not do this to us...

I myself might have committed the same mistake -- noone is perfect. Noone can judge anyone. But what would you do when you realised that you are making the mistake? Do you:-

1. set your heart straight & attempt to make it right despite that you know you'll get the most undesirable result?

2. since it is a mistake, carry on with it. Pray it goes right in the end & noone finds out?

3. [dunnoe?]

Even I myself dunno what I'll do... Can I face the drastic consequences or can I betray my conscious? I can't bear to lie through my teeth to the person I value bcos I dont want to hurt him/her..

i can't stop or prevent others from hurting me but I would try to not hurt others.. As a friend, i can only analyse & advise the current situation to you but the decision is up to you to make. So my friend, all i ask from you is please (please!!) just be fair to yourself and others.. Give yourself and others a chance.. To let go may not be the scariest thing, the scariest thing is when you realised you have lost yourself... I think it might be the funniest thing on earth to hear this coming from me & not bcos I just went through it & am here preaching.. Definitely something you dont like hearing & can be upset with me.. But I want you to be happy and not guilty...

They always tell me...

~What goes around, comes around~

Photo Memories

This morning got an email from a friend. He sent me a link to the photos the whole gang took last year April during a drinking session. While I was looking through the hilarious photos with all the stupid faces, the fond memories came flooding back. As I saved them in my online photo album and saw the rest of the photos I took with Akino -- how we have changed over the years.. We may all look different but relieved to say that all of us still remain as close friends after 10 - 12years since our secondary school...

But as I went on to the other albums, I look at the faces of those whom I was once so close with.. now some of them are no longer by my side or we have became somewhat strangers.. I feel the sudden swarm of disappointment over me... But I am still glad that I have those photos to remind me of the happy times we used to have..

Then I have a sudden impulse to make use of all opportunities to snap down all the gatherings with friends just in case, as time slips through the pockets of memories, the very least if one day when all left, am still left with photos to embrace...

at the age of near 25

I just got back from KL. It was supposed to be a leisure trip, a "recovery" and "self-discovery" journey... I tried to make myself happy and did alot of thinking...

Though I won't say that my life is perfect but neither would I consider it in a complete mess. i have a normal family - my parents & my brother, i have my friends & colleagues, i have my work.. just that my r'ship is forever in a mess..

At the age of near 25, been through 4 r'ships = 4 heartaching breakups, i dont know what i am looking forward for.. i feel disillusionised.. i beginning to feel that "there is always someone for you" is just a sweet consolation for singles - serious..

Initially i was just feeling upset, but today i felt terrible.. it begins to seep and set in.. especially when my gal-friend just messaged me that she just broke up.. i felt like crying.. maybe for her & for myself.. i heard her crying & sobbing over the phone.. i dont what to say or how to console her.. me on the other side was trying to suppress myself..

besides a few happy couples, my gal-friends around me are all facing problems themselves.. we may not be the perfect girls but we are all good girls.. so why we dont get a guy that treats us well & good? why do we end up in heartaches?

i just wanna tell her: Mei, you are not alone. we are in it together. letting go of someone is difficult and heartaching especially you have been with him for years.. Felicia said that ending 1 r'ship denotes the start of the other 1 r'ship.. but i know it is difficult to accept bcos am also learning.. we'll just have to be strong.. we can cry to relieve our sadness temporarily but it should be temporarily..

Young is nice...

Today I was on travelling from Tampines back home and I saw this young couple coming into the train, holding hands, whispering sweet nothings and laughing away...

"How nice to be young and be in a relationship" You dont need to think so much bcos you are young and so, you have the time and youth to "try first then decide" later..

However, when I was talking to my friend, J, she said that though 25 is a young number but to a woman, 25 is counting down for us.. We can't afford to play around bcos we would lose our value soon.. unless we really want to be left on the shelves..So we can no longer "try first then decide" and whoever we choose to be is someone we wanna marry and live with...

Oh my! That sounds so scary... bcos I feel that leaves us women with no choice - how pathetic! No matter what, I still feel that you will need to try before you know if you 2 are compatible.. So you still have to start somewhere..

Why is it that guys can choose and decide ("try first then decide") and whereas gals cant choose and decide slowly? So unfair...