at the age of near 25

I just got back from KL. It was supposed to be a leisure trip, a "recovery" and "self-discovery" journey... I tried to make myself happy and did alot of thinking...

Though I won't say that my life is perfect but neither would I consider it in a complete mess. i have a normal family - my parents & my brother, i have my friends & colleagues, i have my work.. just that my r'ship is forever in a mess..

At the age of near 25, been through 4 r'ships = 4 heartaching breakups, i dont know what i am looking forward for.. i feel disillusionised.. i beginning to feel that "there is always someone for you" is just a sweet consolation for singles - serious..

Initially i was just feeling upset, but today i felt terrible.. it begins to seep and set in.. especially when my gal-friend just messaged me that she just broke up.. i felt like crying.. maybe for her & for myself.. i heard her crying & sobbing over the phone.. i dont what to say or how to console her.. me on the other side was trying to suppress myself..

besides a few happy couples, my gal-friends around me are all facing problems themselves.. we may not be the perfect girls but we are all good girls.. so why we dont get a guy that treats us well & good? why do we end up in heartaches?

i just wanna tell her: Mei, you are not alone. we are in it together. letting go of someone is difficult and heartaching especially you have been with him for years.. Felicia said that ending 1 r'ship denotes the start of the other 1 r'ship.. but i know it is difficult to accept bcos am also learning.. we'll just have to be strong.. we can cry to relieve our sadness temporarily but it should be temporarily..