Thinking.. ...

No one in this world cannot live without anyone but yet, no man is an island...
Some can live without love and some cant live with loneliness...

爱人或被爱才是最幸福？

在对的时候，遇见对的人是幸福的。
在对的时候，遇见错的人是无奈的。
在错的时候，遇见对的人是悲哀的。
在错的时候，遇见错的人是可笑的。

缘份 - 是少了缘还是少了份？
叶子的离开，是风的追求还是树的不挽留？

To be or not to be... educated...

Somehow this topic has been on my mind for the past 2 days but just that I have no time to jot it down.. So am gonna scribble something and get it off my mind before my day gets busier.. (Afternote: i actually took 2hrs to write this!OMG)

Had lunch with my colleagues at Katong and 1 of them was just mentioning that her friend ordered dumplings and when he realised that the number of the dumplings in the soup does not telly with what was shown on the menu picture, he actually coloured the missing one on the menu... I would think this action is barbaric, won't you? And guess what, he is a PhD holder.. who would guess that such high qualification person would do something that we deem as barbaric?

I find that the more higher you are educated, you tend to complain more, demand more and more critical with things but that is because you know your own rights as a comsumer. Having being a service line before, I can tell you, these people are a pain in the neck and rude 'cos they think they are mighty and high after some extra years of University.. some times, they are just trying to make things difficult for you.. Being a graduate myself, I hope I am not like one of those people..

So is being highly educated good? Yes, it is good for the country with all the elites, good for the economy.. But does that mean losing some basic values?

That night, I was sitting at the coffeeshop waiting for my fishsoup bee hoon takeaway then a pram with a 2-years old toddler passed by with his parents. Judging their age, I would think that they are probably in the late twenties.. Pardon me - i dont think they are highly educated but probably poly(?).. Nowadays govt keeps saying that graduates are not getting married to reproduce "elite" babies. Is that one bad side of a coin? 'Cos I see many of my poly-graduate friends got married or getting married but I don't see that in my Uni-graduate friends.. Many of them are still single (like me) or facing problems..

Many of our parents/elders are not highly educated people but yet, they are polite, respectful, humble and their marriage last longer, less divorces, more marriages etc.. I understand that it could be a social thing and the era, time... (blah blah blah)... but doesnt highly education have a part to play too?

Rules still rules..

Rules... How many of us like to adhere to a certain sets of rules that we need to compromise? I myself don't like.. Dislike in fact.. But like it or not, rules still play an important part in our lifes, isn't it...
I dont know how many of you out there used to think that there are certain actions are confined to be done my couples i.e. gf/bf and not to friends.. i used to think (when am young) that actions like holding hands, kissing, hugging are meant for couples only but as we grow older, it seems that there are no specific action for different kind of r'ships..
Was talking to a secondary school friend (CY) and listening to his r'ship stories. He told me that he & another gal friend hold hands and kiss as well when they are just friends.. Just as other guy friends were telling me, sex is no longer restricted to the person you like/love and it can be with a stranger (ONS)...
So as I was thinking when I am on my way home, how many of us are "guilty" of such confusing actions? I admit I am somewhat "guilty" too in the past... Does that means that as we grow older, the boundaries we set for such actions/behaviours by ourselves start to "stretch" and disintegrate? A simple action like holding hands is no longer an exclusive privilege for couple.. A common friends can also kiss.. So what's sex?!
Hence, will this slowly evolve into a point where some of us who arent married in another 10-20 years, where we will have regular sex partners although i do know some of my friends at that age actually have their regular sex partners, maybe for the companionship or just to fulfil their biological physical needs or the need to feel "alive"?
CY agrees that that might just be the case and i asked him if we are letting the rules break loose... Are we lacking/losing some things here? Is it something good? Not that I am against any of the above but just thinking if the youngsters nowadays are really that open-minded or it is due to the experiences and age that individual goes through..
~dont understand~

Am Bored TOnight!!!

It was a usual Saturday again today.. Work in the late morning till evening and went to attend family gathering..

Though got 2 sms-es to ask me to head down to 1. chijmes to pub and 2. clarke quay to club tonight but somehow, the mood is not there and the crowd is not right... basically am not in the mood to know new friends and entertain them... Would prefer to just stay quiet and relax with someone comfortable with that i do not need to entertain..

In the end, not able to come to terms that I am home so early on a Saturday night, i decided to join my kakis for mahjong again... Yes - again... Been seeing the same group of people for weeks, doing the same activity...

I dunnoe.. Somehow feel that my social life has come to a stagnant..because it is always the same group of people I meet and doing the same thing...

Am I getting tired because I am getting old? or because of work? or is this a passing phrase? Am I the only one that is feeling so or it is common?

OR... my social circle is shrinking?... oh no...

Past memories of JC days

This evening, I went back to NY for a brief meeting with 1 of the teachers to see a rehearsal. For those who are not my JC-mates, NY has totally changed - building, facet, orientation and people...

If you ask me to stand in the centre of the main building foyer, I cant tell you where were the NSEW blocks anymore.. Where was the old council room.. i lost my orientation and my past memories of NY no longer seems to gel with the present NY.. So is this change for the better or worse? For me, i would think is bad cos i lost the "feel" with the school but for the present users, it will be for the better cos it is a better environment with good and new facilities..

I passed by the announcement board of the present 27th Student Council.. Oh my, 7 batches of councillors have gone since my batch.. I missed those Council days! I really did not regret joining despite the sacrifices that we had made.. "We had fun. We had joy. We had the season in the sun.." And I missed you GUYS! ;)

Strolling down the glass panels, I kinda envy the kind of activities that they organised in the campus.. Did we have that in our days? Or am I too busy to notice those events? hahahaa...

Oh well.. those days in schools are really the most enjoyable and carefree... and i really wish i can turn back time and enjoy those times..

What's my social circle coming to?

hmm... wondering what's my blog title for? oh well, beginning to realise that i am having more and more gay guy friends in my social circle when i come to know today that another of my guy friend is a gay too.. Am not surprised and as usual, my gay-radar always failed me..

Aiyo, why another one? Not that am interested in him or what but just quite disappointed to find another gay friend (as if I dont have many!)... Now I am surrounded by gay friends.. Dont get me wrong-i am not against anyone.. Do I have that certain vibes that i get more gay friends than normal guy friends? Hmm... why? how come?

Now the guys I meet are either gay or attached (gfs/wives).. Aww..This cannot go on lah... scary! Hahaha.. just seems fated... kekekeee... oh well, good guys dont belong to me anyways... =D

A Scorpio Woman

A simple woman who would always shows what kind of a mood she's in. U can tell right away if she's upset or if she's flirting with u. She displays herself with her act more than trying to say it for it's in her character.
A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She's confident and deep down inside she's quite proud of herself. She hates to think she's borne a woman & so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She's a real woman & despite her innocent & childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many man will make mistake if they think she's a gd follower, they're wrong.
She thinks being a plain housewife is boring. She likes to have power & control over other people, but this'll be only her secret, so u'll see a cute woman. Everything she does will look gd, & she has the woman's entire trick u can think of. She can manipulate man without 'em knowing it.
If u think she going to do everything just u say bcos she loves u, then u'll be disappointed. She could b a little tomboyish & she can understand u just by looking into ur eyes. U may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She'll use her x-ray eyes reading ur thot of what u just said or what u r going to say. She always smiles & she can really hide her feelings. (... kekekekeee...)
She'll constantly show that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she'll not leave u, but will even love u more. If she wants sth, she'll do everything to get it. She has her own 6th sense of people & u can feel the energy feedback when u r around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, & she'll also respect & feel proud of that man. A man with power over her shouldn't threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking, strong & healthy man especially when she starts to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It's a plus if he holds a degree or gd career. (who doesn't?!)
She's a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hate, there're no "fond of" or "like" for her. Love has no "maybe" or "perhaps". If she's real mad, she'll trash or throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes & u could get accidentally hit on ur head for this matter. B calm, it's just ur grandmother favourite china for she has gd quality as much as her bad tempered.
Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't b long. She'll put herself back together & back to b that hot chilli again. If she loves u, it'll be no matter what other people may say. Her r'ship is more impt than what's right/wrong. Bcos of this reason, u may know some Scorpio woman become a 2nd wife, a mistress (hmmm...)
She's spoil but she allows her love one to overpower her. Dating this woman, u shouldn't keep old love letters in ur pocket or in ur house. It could b a love letter 2yrs ago, but nevermind she'll argue abt this since this's a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.
If u play a cold war with her, she'll treat u likewise & double it. if u stood her up once, she'll stood u up 2-3 times. She's quite fair in justice, so she can accepts ur apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now & wait for a payback revenge in the future. If u r nice to her, she'll double that to u as well. A real fair woman. (yup!)
She likes to make & spend $. She likes to have fame & reputations, & never let herself go broke & no name @ the same time. She's too proud & will not accept the status of being "poor". She loves to have face, so if u r a manager with small salary, she'll be proud more than more $ being a truck driver. She hates & can't stand the feeling of being a "nobody". (hahahaa..)
If u like her, play a little hard to get. This'll excite her a bit. When u go out on date, set ur schedule, but dont let her knows that u'hv planned this for weeks. Always go & pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes earlier. (=P)
==========
how true do u think?

Self-pity.. Self-reflect...

I just got back from a mahjong session.. I am still wide awake.. Something is keeping me awake..

Exactly 4 weeks ago, at the same place with the same bunch of people, there were 2 couples and 2 individuals - i was among 1 of the couples.. But today, there were 3 "couples" and 1 individual - I became that individual.. Feel like a "light bulb" - the extra..

OK, allow me to whine a bit tonight.. no doubt the situation made me recalled of the fond memories and the sad feelings just overwhelmed.. But I am clear that I can't just live on memories because I have already lost faith.. Besides that, I feel that I have also lost a friend as well - just like what I expected.. Maybe friends you get after you graduated really dont last long...

Surprisingly, I just got a sms from my friend's boyfriend.. I feel like am caught in between.. maybe I should not get myself involved because I also dunno who i should be helping when i cant even "save" myself..

Perhaps like what Ju said, I should start thinking for myself and not always thinking for the others.. Anyway I am worried about my eye too and hopefully it will be back to normal soon.. *Crossing my fingers*

Seeing Someone?

Am home early today on a Friday night (08 July), first time in dont know how many years.. Everyone on msn is asking me that...

Anyway I had dinner with 2 guy-friends, ex-colleagues @ East Coast (yes.. again..) and we had conversations, updating what has been going on in each other's life..

And apparently we are still very much the same since i just got back to singlehood, K and J still sorta seeing someone.. Though I have been through the phrase of "seeing someone" but I am still pretty confused by the term..

What does "seeing someone" means? i tried checking the internet but there is no answer. Does that means that you are just very close to a opposite sex but not in a relationship? Or it means just physical relationship only? but I only know that you will definitely not acknowledge each other as girl-boyfriend, right?

But like I say previously, it is no longer just the man's game. Like now I am talking to a girl friend on msn, she has 2 bfs... and she is not the only one too... Hmm... what is the world coming to? Or am I too slow to go with the flow?

At the rate that it is going, dont think anyone will be serious with anyone any sooner...

A Dinner with an Unexpected Friend

I have a friend whom i have known him for about 3 years since we started working and we never get to have dinner together till I left.. I should say that he is the first person I know ther. Finally we managed to meet up to have our first dinner last night after much ding-dongs at East Coast..

We spoke about a lot of things on each other and he also let me know a lot of news, updates and gossips too.. Then we kinda drew a conclusion that we kinda spent so much time in the company that it is almost equivalent to selling our souls...

Somehow someone is involved or related to someone in the same company that becomes the culture in the company.. is it that we spent so much time there and so it becomes a natural thing that we will somehow be involved with someone in the same company?

The interesting thing is also that everyone is seeing each other and never into the boy-girl relationship. Everyone is free to date others at the same time - interesting phenomenon.. Some are even 2-timings at the same time... Does this just happen for that company or it has become a trend everywhere? it no longer seems to be the guy thing but the girls are also doing the same thing.. playing the field.. Does that mean that girls have also learn to be smart & no longer just bang all their expectations on 1 guy or they are beginning to display their suppressed hidden traits?

My friend has an interesting theory of his contract relationships which i still cant understand why. i think maybe everyone has their own ways and rules of playing this game call relationship.