Self-pity.. Self-reflect...

I just got back from a mahjong session.. I am still wide awake.. Something is keeping me awake..

Exactly 4 weeks ago, at the same place with the same bunch of people, there were 2 couples and 2 individuals - i was among 1 of the couples.. But today, there were 3 "couples" and 1 individual - I became that individual.. Feel like a "light bulb" - the extra..

OK, allow me to whine a bit tonight.. no doubt the situation made me recalled of the fond memories and the sad feelings just overwhelmed.. But I am clear that I can't just live on memories because I have already lost faith.. Besides that, I feel that I have also lost a friend as well - just like what I expected.. Maybe friends you get after you graduated really dont last long...

Surprisingly, I just got a sms from my friend's boyfriend.. I feel like am caught in between.. maybe I should not get myself involved because I also dunno who i should be helping when i cant even "save" myself..

Perhaps like what Ju said, I should start thinking for myself and not always thinking for the others.. Anyway I am worried about my eye too and hopefully it will be back to normal soon.. *Crossing my fingers*