Friends OR Ex-es?

Yesterday I had dinner with one of my ex-es. He was in fact my first bf when I was in JC. Though after we broke up so many years, we still maintain contact as friends, council mates, jc mates...

We kinda meet up once a year to catch up with each other to see how's everyone doing (partly also because in case his gf gets jealous). BUT, they are finally getting married next year Nov. I am happy for them of course! Anyway the fact is we are over each other.

But how many of us will seriously be over our ex-es without the tinge that we are just friends? And I also know that there are couples who are no longer friends with each other. Should I then be glad that I am still friends with all my ex-es OR is it because I somehow still feel tiny tweeny bit of feelings for them?

After dinner with my ex, I went down to dbl o to meet up with another group of friends and was with them till 3am. My friend told me that his ex-gf is coming over then am kinda searching on his face..i am not sure if he is happy or what.. but there is a certain tone of mocking, especially they just broke up in July.

Then I am thinking if he really gotten over the girl or vice versa..

Can a couple still be friends and feel like friends after they broke up?

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Last night I saw a guy crying his heart out after he was drunk. I was dumbfounded and not knowing what to do..I could only sit & see him feeling helpless since my friend's ex was already there to console him..

A guy's tear is a more powerful weapon than any..i feel...

Perfect or Not?

Recently i am into posting my "out of the blues" questions to friends and get them thinking. Other than if i am a flirt, bitch / slut, last night while having drinks with my girlfriends at Villa Bali, I just thought of this question:

"At the age of 35, if you found your 'dream' guy, but he is married. Would you then still carry on with this 'dream' guy OR would you settle for someone less 'perfect'?"

Out of 4 of us, 2 chose to settle for someone less, 1 chose neither and I chose the 'dream' guy - a seemingly wrong choice.. But when comes to feelings, who can judge right/wrong? Quoted from my entry on July 14, "If she loves u, it'll be no matter what other people may say. Her r'ship is more impt than what's right/wrong. Bcos of this reason, u may know some Scorpio women become a 2nd wife, a mistress." If I failed, at least I know I tried..

Some of you who have read to this point might be violently disagreeing with me but I do have the freedom of choice, isn't it?

OH! by the way, don't worry, I won't hit on my friends' boyfriends.. hahaha~

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那时我们总有好多话 什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早 却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化 我不想再多说话
经过了相遇和挣扎 我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了 有一天你突然问我
在那个时候 是否也爱着他
我也很想他 我们都一样
在他的身上 曾找到翅膀
只是那时的他 是因为你他开始飞翔
我也很想他 在某个地方
我少了尴尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短 思念却很长
还记得 那年我们三个许下的愿望
星星骗了我们 我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分
我们都一样

(From 孙燕姿-我也很想他)

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Tell Me Where You Are

A friend of mine just introduced me to this new song and i thought it was quite a nice listen. The original is not the techno version but think it is more popular with the remix version. Hope you like it.

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Tell Me Where You Are
by Ago
Life without you is just right, can't you see?
I feel fine since you're gone, should I say disappeared
I kept holding all my tears since I saw you for the last time
I've been through another year
I must say that I'm a strong girl...
But tell me where you are, where you're sleeping at night,
tell me who do you love now, who do you miss now?
Tell me what you see when you're closing your eyes
If you ever remember when I was by your side.
(We could be friends though it's so hard
When two lovers fall apart.)

Runaway friend...

For once in my life that i feel like running away...

Ok, this is gonna sound weird that for one moment am happy but the next moment now, i wanna run away...

I wonder if my friends were already right about me having high standards about potential guys.. am i looking for the perfect guy? If he is a nice guy, does that mean i can tolerate him having flaws... I dont mind if a guy is a poor drinker & he can sits down if he had a drop too much BUT not when he cant dance especially when he's gone...

Meeting everyday for 7 days is suffocating me! Please! Let me have back my personal space and time... I dont need a speeding friendship... True, I am an impatient person when comes to work etc... but in this friendship, I wanna go slow.. Why rush..

I wanna run away

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~i am scared~

HAPPY is in the Air...

Met up with K and Xiu last night..Thanks to the call that K made.. I know they are very concerned and care about me.. Am grateful to what she said over the phone and I was so touched.. She reminded me of whats happening around me.. Threw me back to thinking...

I just wanna tell them thank you, I know what they worry about.. I am too.. If we are talking about a r'ship here, i dont think I am ready for it yet. Especially now this, everything is going too soon, too fast.. B'cos now, to be honest, I am enjoying the attention that I get and of course, at the end of it, there is a consequence. Moreover, I am not sure if I am up to commit anything now for anyone. I enjoy my late nights clubbing, pubbing, supper, mahjong and coffees.. Maybe in the past, I would have straightaway said that I am. But now, I think twice..

Last weekend, someone I am close with commented "What a flirt you are! hahaha" - I think I am!

I am feeling happy now..If I have to feel sad, let it come later..

ps: K, hope u take care of ya-self..

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By Astrology.com
Daily work - You're a magnet for attention and high-quality people right now, so work it while it lasts. Get as many folks as you can lined up behind you, and then work the magic you're famous for.
Daily singles love - Change is in the romantic air for you, and if that sounds like a negative or scary thing, turn your attitude upside-down immediately. When you're as hot as you are now, any change is bound to be amazing.

*Class 95FM playing: Thats Friends are For*

A New Friend = Car

Recently I got to know a new friend. Seems like a nice chap (so far cos I only got to know him for like 2 weeks?) Cheerful guy on the phone.. there is alot of laughter.. But it seems that we never get to meet even when we arranged to...

Anyway we finally met for a real short while on last Friday night outside a club.. Weird right? And somemore he was high on alcohol... Then we happened to be at Zouk on Satuday night (he in Zouk, me @ winebar) and we didnt get to meet until i left in the cab to head home... He was also high on alcohol again... Hmm... Wondering if he is that a poor drinker or he had too much though..

So to apologise, he came over to my workplace yesterday to meet me for coffee but too much work to do, told him we'll fix for dinner instead @ 6.45pm. When I saw him at the roundabout, I got a shock when I saw the car! I mean yes, I know he drives but I thought was the usual saloon car like nissan sunny, toyota vios etc... But I saw a silver 2-doors sports car... Coolz!!!

hahaha.. ok... i admit i sound like a bimbo.. but hey, the car is cool and given his age, that car seems to cost quite abit.. I always wanted a 2-door car (if i drive & can afford.. hahaha) and envied those... then can blast music and what... the car top can be slided open... My!!! Am in LOVE with the car...

Hahahaa!!

Oops.. I side-tracked.. hahaha...

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afterthought: he reminds me of walter though.. his actions, speech, expressions..