Marriage - A Dream Or A Nightmare

attended yong's rom on sunday. a nice and simple ceremony. she still looks as gorgeous as ever - no doubt.. being able to get married should be happy and hence, the happy smile on her face said it all.. A Dream..

got to know a friend's girlfriend.. am happy for him but complicated situation.. she is married with a daughter.. in the midst of divorce procedures.. verbally abused by husband and in-laws.. A Nightmare..

met a friend for lunch.. had differences with the husband.. husband blamed her for not taking good care of their daughter.. husband becomes jealous, suspicious of her.. complaining that she is fat.. bad tempered.. A Nightmare..

off hand now i cant quite recall any of my friends who are still happily married after 2 years of marriage. somehow most of them have got more complaints than praises for their spouses. some are because of their in-law issues, some because of children problems and some because of their personal differences..

havent 2 persons come together to get married to each other because they realised that they are able to accept and see the goodness of each other? then why is it after the marriage, people says different things? more than often i heard that my gf complaining that the husband complained that "you should probably watch your weight" after her pregnancy. MAN - why are you complaining so much?! isn't all these sacrifices done for you?

i would want to get married and have a couple of children one day but sometimes what i see and hear from my friends, it is just so scary.. it becomes a disillusion.. this is a big gamble when comes to choosing the right husband.. what if it all went wrong?

everyone thought it would turn out to be a good dream. it is good if it turned out to be what you expect. what happen to a dream turn bad? it is a nightmare that you cannot imagine..

once lost...

just last week as i was taking a train to work, i took out the usual ezlink card that i hid in my little bag compartment since i hardly use it especially now that i take the private bus to work... looking at the card, it just came to me that i am still using the ezlink card that belonged to my ex-bf... and somehow it just warmed my heart and i smiled...

i think it was also because i have not seen him for quite some time though we "talk" to each other with simple "hi" and "how are you?" when we managed to catch each other on msn. to be honest, i quite miss him and his boyish smile... i told him about this when we met on msn just that weekend... and co-incidentally, he had the same realisation on the same week too...

silent came. noone spoke anything further. perhaps both of us have just moved on with our lives with different partners. i guess we still do have feelings for each other but it seems pointless to talk about it anymore (or rather i think so..)

nonetheless, we had a little of each other and we joked that we would keep that little piece in our heart. how many people would be able to do that?

*my heart smiled*

you don't understand me or what!

i don't understand if people seriously don't understand instructions or there is a problem to my language! when i said "check your email" means of course that there are things that i want you to know but yet i didn't include in the sms-es that i sent to you... so why can't you just check your fucking email rather than i have to send a 3-page smses to 9 people and when obviously everyone would have questions which means i have to reply more than once to 1 person... then for what do you need the email when nobody bothers to check and read?!

when the message read "meet 7pm at xxx", is it not clear enough for anyone?!

damn! i am in a fucking bad mood!

my update

actually i have nothing much to write about but maybe it has became a habit to update a bit pieces of my life here and there so that people know that i am still alive and kicking...

i am weary and luckily it is the thursday today... because i don't need to work tomorrow!... things are all planned out for this weekend... another weekend that i don't get to see my group of gossipy girlfriends... how long have i not seen them? (let me see my calendar...) i think it has been almost a month that i have not met up with them since chinese new year! *goosh* hehehee.. do you girls mizz me?!

hey... next week is already yong's rom! need to get something for her, manz...

when you just wanted the simplest way out

sometimes it is just the way of life... *SIGH*

it is obvious that when you just wanted the simplest way to get out of a situation, it did not allow you to and all ways to make things difficult..

yet when there are obvious easy way out, man just choose to go round the big bush...

though it is very disappointing but is that really the way of life?