a meant-well hurt

for the past few weeks, one of ex-colleagues has been messaging me, asking me to go out. however, it just somehow did not work out to tie down a date to meet up. he has been dropping hints i guess - like "let's date!"... "am so direct to ask you out"... though he did not express anything but i thought it is already pretty obvious that he is interested in me... hahahahaaa.... so yesterday i thought i better make it clear to him that i am attached before he blamed me for leading him on... in the end, i think i am too direct and he could be hurt... well, it might be better for him... happened that i bumped into him today (see~ how coincidence it can be!)... i felt that he was a little embarrassed and unhappy (?) and now i felt a tit-a-tat guilty though... geez! stupid maurz still can joke that lucky no one committed suicide last night while flipping the papers today...
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i was at a pets' shop today at marine parade and a 3-months old red Pomeranian puppy at the display window caught my attention.. he was such a sweet little thing... tamed and not very active... lovable one... when the care taker took him out, he was so shy and was cuddling himself to the care taker like a little baby... he costs $1,600 - not affordable for me now and i have nowhere to take care of him too... sighz... so besides schnauzer, terrier, maltese, pomeranian is my next favourite on the list... oh no!!! i wanna get a dog but yet, fear them at times... hahahhaa!