Where ignorance is bliss, Tis folly to be wise

was running through 2 of the blogs and both have a common feeling that ignorance is a bliss.

is ignorance really a bliss? it is probably a bliss when you know that the outcome/result is not what you wanted. if it turns out to be your ideal answer, won't it be a bliss to know? when we can't handle a situation, we choose to avoid/escape and ignore.

however, won't it be better to know even it is not good because at least you are not cheated. some may think "so long i don't know, i can pretend that it has not happen before."

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isn't this fooling yourself?

Kudos to my girl-friends!

i am amazed by how we 5 crazy girls worked at times. a suggestion for bbq came up on wednesday and by thursday, 3 of us went to giant to purchase all the stuff for the bbq on friday @ gracey's new place... ta-ta! we had bbq on friday night after work! coolz.. cant deny that i really take my hat off these girls and the rate we decide and do something out of the blues.. but that is what i like about this bunch of girl-friends that i made at work - we are friends, sistas and colleagues.. we share our deepest secrets (hmmm... how deep?), fantasies, troubles, worries and happiness.. i am very touched by miao...

though she is 2 years my senior, i like to call her "silly girl".. she never fails to surprise me with her little actions and gifts.. she bought me a little bear when i was stressed at work (now sitting at a corner of my chair), bought all of us a stalk of flower for no reason and gave me a pouch for my upcoming trip after i just made a sweeping comment that i need to look for a simple pouch for my travel stuff... *mucks for miao*

of course we have our differences.. tolerance and patience are what we try to give each other.. it is difficult to even be that close especially when we are all colleagues so what more can i ask for at work besides having these girls.. however we cant always be at the same workplace forever, people do leave but i guess we are all so closely knitted, i hope this friendship will not be lost just like this..

not that i have found others to replace my other group of girl-friends whom i known for years through secondary school, college and uni.. they are just as important and guilty as i am, i have kinda neglected them.. promised that i will try to catch up on mahjongs and dinners with you gals hopefully before i fly off for my trips..

after several months of "resting" since my last appearace at dbl o in last december, i have finally stepped into mos i.e. deemed to be "the place" for club-goers on saturday. saw quite a number of colleagues surprisingly. sad to say, a few of us thought that the music at smoove wasn't really fantastic that night although i must say that some of the spaces were well-decorated! hahahaa.. not to forget to mention me bringing gracey to her first clubbing experience and end up having supper with the irritating zola - juicy news! *LOL*

My Saviour! - Progress Package

met up with my ex-colleagues for dinner last night.. both of them have resigned - 1 found a new job within 2 weeks in another stat board and the other is still jobless after 2 months... though she has sent out numerous applications but none seems to have expressed interest... this is the time of the year where people move on with their career... old colleagues/friends leave, new colleagues came on the job. time to make new friends/enemies...am i just glad that i have a job?

i like to read bluemoon's blog because she is forever so poetic but yet at the same time, pessimistic about her life... nonetheless i still read it as a supplement dose to my daily life as it can quite an insight.

just did my sums and realised that i might not be that poor afterall... i still have my Progress Package pending to be sent to me! money! hahahaa... now the trips to taipei and hanoi dont look that dull and i can pay off all my credit card bills!... hahahaa...

hmmm.. wondering if i have enough $ to do rebonding on my hair though...

taipei first then hanoi in may

i just got called into boss' office yesterday evening and only got to know that he won't be able to make it to tiwan for a business trip in may. the other colleague working with me on the projects is also heading to germany for courses...looks like i am the one to go to taiwan...

i am pretty excited about it because it is the first time that boss sent me on such trip in place of him. good opportunity for me to learn the ropes and widen my contact circles. however, the trip is on 12 - 19 may and i am supposed to fly to hanoi on 19 may afternoon... looks like i have to make an early trip back to singapore...

yeah! am going to be out of singapore for the entire 10 days in may.. big hole in the pocket! =/

the one for me/you?

on this cold and rainy day, i got a message from someone that touched me while i was chatting with him...

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me: u got too many girls to handle at one time lah... that's y no time for me mah...

him: no lah... u'll probably be too bored to be with me!

me: hahahaa.. try me... just joking la... me also not ur type of girl.. LOL...

him: =) sorry babe! you are. just that i am not ur kinda guy... not the one that can stay faithful to ya...

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wont you just melt away when someone actually said that you are his type of girl?! its just flattering... kekeez.. although i admit it seems pretty wrong to feel that way especially i have someone who is pretty good to me but that sentence just made my day... i am just being super bimbo-tic! *LOL*

he usually reads my blog once in a while & i suppose he must be proud of himself... AIyah! i just boosted his ego, manz!

OK! anyway what is said here shall remain here. Promise?

easter long weekend

was browsing my friends' blogs like the usual routine when i get to office in the morning especially after a weekend to see if anything happened.. realised that nothing much was updated. was there really nothing much has happened or everyone was just too tired and lazy to put it up?

it was usually exceptionally tired after a long weekend. perhaps had too much overnight mahjong sessions, thinking that i should have enough rest since it was a long weekend. nonetheless, i am still beat tired. there are always people who just have the lucky gambling streak, be it mahjong, cards or 4Ds.. perhaps those money that i have lost on the table is enough to last me a month? but then again, that's the price to pay for entertainment that indirectly cause harm to your health..

other than mahjong, of course i did other things like suntanning at sentosa which caused me a earful of nagging from my mum, saying that a girl should look fair and not tanned... and the long overdue workout at gym... now i am aching all over...

*ouch*

wisdom... fun...

i finally have gotten some wisdom i supposed.. that's why my left wisdom tooth decided to let itself revealed.. not exactly causing me much of a discomfort but just that it hurts abit just below my left chin...

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yeah... it is finally Friday...

Going to enjoy my weekend starting tonight having ladies night @ my friend's place for ice-wine and off to the Picturehouse tomorrow afternoon for 3 Times...

exciting! exciting!

Let it Go... Pride...

i was listening to Corrinne May's song - Let It Go on my pc till part of the lyrics of the chorus caught my attention. those that coincides with my feelings.

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I'm gonna lay down,

Lay down my pride

Let it go, let it be

Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine

Let it go, let it be

Let it go

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Can we lay down

Just lay down this pride
Let it go, let it be

Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine

Let it go, let it be

Let it go

Don't go wasting your emotions

No one wins if we keep score

Let it go, let it be

Let it go

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Pride - the thing that i am dealing with now internally. can i just lay it down? would everything be just fine if it is down? or that is the only thing that is keeping myself from hurt?

i am probably the worst kind of girlfriend that any guy can have. Period.

forguven but not forgotten

i just realised today that there are just simply some things that you can forgive but never will you ever forgot... never...
when you think that you probably have gotten over it and forgotten, it just floats to the surface when others dug deeper. just like the fresh wound again... it only camouflaged itself in an un-noticiable corner, waiting patiently for it to be refreshed...

Bintan, Hanoi and dog

i have recently went to bintan over the last weekend with my group of girlfriends-colleagues. all of us are sun-kissed if not, burnt! =) but still we had fun and joy especially with a group of girls... gossips what else!? am waiting for the photos to be sent to us and see the crazy things we have done... hahahaa!

i am already looking forward to my next trip in may to hanoi.. i want to get a vietnamese costume and their handmade crafts... hopefully i will not overspend..

friends commented that i have travelling quite a bit this year.. hearing me going somewhere almost every quarter.. but i am always to somewhere near and relatively cheap especially when the airtickets are going cheap...

my friend has been harping that she wants to get a pet dog.. causing me to be half-interested.. going into pets shop seeing puppies... saw 1 white australian maltese and i fell in love with her but she cost $1600! hence decided that i am probably not ready to have 1 since i have yet to overcome my fear of dog..