familiar stranger

过了许久，我们终于定在昨天见面吃晚餐。记得上回见到YJ的时候是去年11月我刚生日不久后。昨晚遇见他时，他还是没变多少。在人群中，远远就看到他的人影，身穿着绿色T恤--一个我从不晓得他会穿的颜色。他的品味开始变了，也许是受到“她”的影响吧。。。
他还是照着老样子，毫不犹豫的帮我付账。我们就这样吃着各自摆在面前的晚餐，依旧安静。不善于安静的我开始试图把宁静的空间划破。结果，我们之间的谈话就好像只有我讲他听。我喋喋不休问着他的家人和“她”。他姐姐终于生了一个10个月大的小男婴而家里人就为了这宝宝而忙进忙出。
问到他和“她”时，感觉到他似乎不想说太多。我只知道才不到1年的时间他已经把“她”带回家见过家人了。那时的我，近2年却连他有女朋友的事也没说出口。哎！我是怎么了？
在前往与Maurz见面途中，我突然想着，“我到底当初看上这男人的哪一点？让我分手时如此难过但现在仍然怀念以前”。是他专著听着我说话的眼神还是那男孩似的微笑？其实这些都不重要了因为大家各自有了身边陪伴的人。也许就是得不到的事物才特别渴望吧！
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你曾与我有同感吗?

DepaRture

just this morning got to know that 1 another colleague is leaving in july. i just immeditately felt so sad. although, i don't get to work with her very often nor on close terms, i have a lot of respect for her. perhaps of the recent many departures in the office, that's why...
people in her department were laughing out loud while i was typing away and absorbed in my little sadness for her departure... maybe they had moaned over it yesterday and got over... but how can that be so fast?
friends i have in the company are getting lesser... less of those who are on the same frequency as i have... many have either left or on the lookout for jobs... hearing them saying going for interviews every other week...
a lesson in the adult life to learn...

A bitta pOetic..

this piece just came to my mind this morning while waiting for a bus... thought i could just pen it down before i forget...trying to be a bitta poetic... kekekez... please change your encoding under "view" to unicode (UTF-8) to see the chinese characters...

初恋时，

你曾真心地对我说：

“我每天都会爱你多一天”。

日子久了，

你对我的爱也到了极限，

再也无法多了。

渐渐的，

它就一天一天的变少了。

当时的实话，随风飞逝，变成了假话。

这世界有不变的爱吗？

My "He"

i am so touched by my "he" that i decided to write something about him although he might not have the opportunity to read this blog..

we do have our fights and quarrels like any couple even we are just into 8 months' of relationship. for those who know, we have our hard time and conflicts in this short period far more than others have been through for years... i admit i am always the "fire" hot-tempered and stubborn person.. he, on the other hand, is ever so patient to reason with him and he has his impatient time with me as well but he never fail make sure this doesnt get carried over to the next day... surprisingly these just knitted our relationship more closely and stable..

he never misses his opportunity to hold my hand in public, assuring that he is near me..

he wont let me go even when he is driving...

he never fails to wipe my tears away while i was watching a soapy show...

he never miss his morning, good-bye and good night kisses...

he stand by for what i choose and decide to do without much questions...

he waits quietly for me while i work late at night so that he can be just there for me when i needed him...

he forgives me with what i have done wrong...

he just hugs me quietly when i needed...

the nickname that my friend gave him from "such a sweet guy", "cutie pie" to the more recent "he's such a darling". i am not denying all this but maybe it is just me that i hardly show this in front of my friends. friends keep telling me that he is a husband-material... but i know it would take another 3-4 years before anything drastic can happen...

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he gives me so much more and beyond but can i give him in return?

A Week's Summary

just finished my usual routine on a monday morning of checking others' blogs. a week has passed from the last entry of blog. nothing big deal has happened over the week, just couple of small episodes here and there...

had a mid-week drinking session with the girls at wala wala with the unexpected turn up of ws, ah mao's dear and maurz. never did i intend to let ws and maurz meet and let alone introducing each other - just felt it might complicate things a little though not as if now it is any bit. anyway it was still an unusual fun night out but leaving me with a hangover the next morning.. the rest of the weekdays just flew past at the speed of light...

Came Saturday night which we clubbing at thumper with j, mei, Poh Ling (mei's friend) and mteo. my first time there and overall it was still okay. apparently the crowd is much older than dbl o since the recommended age limit for guy is 28 and 3/4 of the crowd were guys. so we seemed to be the youngest among them.. just like xiao mei mei as what mteo said when he saw me. perhaps it was of my image - rebonded straight hair, dark red hair, pink halter top and denim short skirt - goes to show we didnt meet up for the longest time... then he mentioned that i always surprise him each time and look "hot" every time. hmmm... wondering what it meant?hahaha... oh and j got "spotted"! but too bad, she is taken! =)

yesterday was NOT a good day at all for me. went gym and nearly lost my key to the locker.. went waxing and it is god-damn painful. why did i let myself go through the pain? had a quarrel with maurz and being forced to still go his house for dinner... had a headache that wont go away... wanted to get a black forest cake but nowhere is selling it... finally i just had to end all the "mishappenings" with a tiramisu from coffee bean...a sweet ending *i hope*

mei finally passed her driving test this morning... i guess this spurs me to go and do my advance theory which i failed long long long ago... that shall be my task this week...