time to rest off the gamble table!

i can't believe it... i have lost about $50 just within these 2 days on mahjong! the best thing was all lost to the same guy... arrgh! i only manage to win one of the games.... *goosh*
i am going to bar him from the game and i am going to rest off the mahjong table for some time... *sigh*

The Lake House

i managed to watch The Lake House last night. It was based on the korean movie Il Mare if you still remember. It was a nice story and i loved it. Beautiful love story that emphasize the meaning of "waiting" - well at least that is for me. Not forgetting that i loved the house as well... stand alone by itself at the lake side, overseeing the lake, see how the light falls into the house and also the maple tree standing in the middle of the house... Perfect House! If only, there is such one in Singapore although we are surrounded by water... and no, i dont want to leave in kelong! hahahaaa...
Sandra Bullock has always been one of my favourite actresses and no doubt i will still catch her show. as for Keanu Reeves, he is such an eye-candy! Though the setting and the storyline are about the same as Il Mare, it still has got its differences. i thought i would buy the story of The Lake House more maybe it is in the language that i understood and hence, that minimised the frustration of having to read the subtitles and the image at the same time. of course, there are some parts which doesnt seems to gel but i will get pass that.. afterall, it is a touching moving story!
it feels nice to watch a nice movie during the mid-week and lifts your mood up a little for the coming weekend..

"am i more confident?"

finally finished a 1.5 days course on presentation skill workshop yeaterday. it is good course i must say. saw my own recording of the presentation that i did before and i was laughing at myself throughout. it is really bad! can see all my stage jitters and they are like shouting in the face "i am NERVOUS!".
i just thought yesterday i did better compared to the first one. but there are still things that i need to work on like my pacing, voice projection etc and i tend to swallow my words too. oh, at least my powerpoint was complimented to be very nice.. hahahahaa! i am going to test out my presentation skills this afternoon and let's hope it gets better each time.
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i was just "complaining" to a friend last night that i feel that i am losing my friends in the company. with most of them leaving for greener pastures and new faces are coming in too fast for me to even recognise and remember them, i find myself left with that small group who i go lunch with or drinks. even so, they are so busy with in their work in own areas that i hardly see them too and it obviously doesnt work when they are not on the same level as me...
not being a loner means that i need friends around me and that doesnt help much when i cant find dinner kakis these few days. oh well... i am just saying my thought out loud... maybe i am just a whiner.. =P

six degree separation

read from a magazine somewhere on the theory of six degree separation over the weekend - meaning that everyone of us is connected external network of 6 persons i think. it is interesting to know and i am getting that feeling too.. especially with the network of Friendster, you know who is linked to who.. like one of my ex-colleague is now the colleague of a good friend of mine and the other is the friend of my boyfriend's brother's girlfriend... complicated or simplified?

sometimes it can get real scary especially if you have secrets in the past that arent that fantastic, imagine how it will spread through people... but i still feel that there are many people whom we have not been linked to..

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my god... iris is pregnant again i heard from mei and 2 months already! this is her 4th one and apparently i thought the 3rd was the last one? anyway it is either she is real fertile or Harry has got strong sperm! hmm.. i dont know if i should feel happy for her which i should if the entire marriage is happy and blissful... just hope they would think of the 4 kids before doing anything drastic...

Conversation

女：我们天天见面，感觉几乎就象已经结了婚的夫妇。
男：这样不好吗？你不喜欢？
女：那我们到结婚的那天，我们会不会已经厌倦了对方？
男：会吗？这完全是个人的选择。你可以选择厌倦对方，另寻新欢，砸了自己的幸福或选择死守着对方。
女：真的吗？[继续思索]

5 left 4...

如果你现在问我，我是如何认识Yv，其实我也说不上来了。好像就是因为自己鸡婆吧，一心只想做“媒人”。虽然不是很成功但也结交了Yv这位朋友。别看这位姑娘有着天使般的脸孔，她发起脾气来可不是开玩笑的，大家都让她几分！
足球世纪杯的最后一场赛事法国对意大利的那一晚也是她离开新加坡到伦敦。这一去就是1、2年的时间。说长也不是很长，说短也不短啊。我是不擅悲欢离合的场面，容易被别人的情绪所影响，就决定在她还没进闸门前先离去。与她拥抱的刹那间，鼻子一酸，泪水已到了眼眶。当我走到停车场时，已经落了好几滴。无法想象若我看见伯母泪洒机场，我会哭得像泪人。尤其当晚的机场处了我们外就真的是空无一人了，整个场面更显凄凉。哎，5人帮少了她一人就真的少了些什么。
*我们会想你的*
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人到异乡，凡事要小心，好好照顾自己。俗话说：在家靠父母，在外靠朋友！

a meant-well hurt

for the past few weeks, one of ex-colleagues has been messaging me, asking me to go out. however, it just somehow did not work out to tie down a date to meet up. he has been dropping hints i guess - like "let's date!"... "am so direct to ask you out"... though he did not express anything but i thought it is already pretty obvious that he is interested in me... hahahahaaa.... so yesterday i thought i better make it clear to him that i am attached before he blamed me for leading him on... in the end, i think i am too direct and he could be hurt... well, it might be better for him... happened that i bumped into him today (see~ how coincidence it can be!)... i felt that he was a little embarrassed and unhappy (?) and now i felt a tit-a-tat guilty though... geez! stupid maurz still can joke that lucky no one committed suicide last night while flipping the papers today...
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i was at a pets' shop today at marine parade and a 3-months old red Pomeranian puppy at the display window caught my attention.. he was such a sweet little thing... tamed and not very active... lovable one... when the care taker took him out, he was so shy and was cuddling himself to the care taker like a little baby... he costs $1,600 - not affordable for me now and i have nowhere to take care of him too... sighz... so besides schnauzer, terrier, maltese, pomeranian is my next favourite on the list... oh no!!! i wanna get a dog but yet, fear them at times... hahahhaa!