upset

我在想：“是我在变吗？还是身边的人在变？难道是我跟不上人家的变化吗？”
我当然知道世界上没什么东西是不变的。身边的朋友来来去去，变了又变。我没办法控制的。但每一次发现朋友开始疏离了就心里不好受。
不知自己怎么了，最近似乎都对身边的朋友有了一点的不满或看不惯他们的作风。是我的问题吗？也许自己直爽的性格，不讨人喜欢吧！自己觉得是忠言的话，常常是朋友不想听的话，而就这样被打入一旁。忠言逆耳
做人难，做别人的好朋友更难。朋友往往都似乎不会记得我的好吧？就算没有了我的存在，也许也没什么大不了，因为我不是一个讨好的角色。就好像今晚，没有我在也无所谓。

BIG relief

i am so relieved that my long-hated chinese presentation is finally over for me. i have been tensed up for the past few days for this presentation that caused my gastric to act up... i even had to do my own chinese script and presenting in Mandarin!!! i was still doing up my script this night till this morning 2.30am which i am now suffering a headache... it is probably the adrenaline that kept me going the entire day till my presentation was over... English i still can "eat" my way through but with Chinese i have to coin my own translation for the jargon... what's more - i was talking to chinese teachers which they are 100 times better than i am...

finally it is over for me... i managed to get through and out still in 1 whole piece... of course i had some cock-ups but i guess it is still manageable. afterall i am already trying very hard to memorise my script... *phew!*

i guess my colleagues were pretty supportive by sitting in the presentation but that made me more nervous... at the end, they gave me a pat on the shoulder to say i have done well but of course i think i could have done even better without all the stammering... however, it is nice to hear commented that i have a nice voice.. hahahahaaa! i can do another freelance job!

it was almost an instant burden unload after the presentation and find myself breathing more normally... what am i still doing in the office at this hour? i am still trying to clear up the backlog that i have created with all the concentration on the presentation.. having difficulties concentrating on the things i need to do though... slowly doing bit by bit...

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i need at least 10 hours of sleep now! ;)

Br|dal gOwn maKes the wOman mOst beaUt|ful

huiyin just sent us the link to her online album which she uploaded some of her wedding photos. she certainly looked different. from the usual "big sister" in polo tees and jeans and slippers/sandals to the feminine lady in the white bare back gown, hair all bunned up and makeup on the face. this is definitely one of the lifetime look for her! knowing her for so long, i probably only seen her in her school uniform skirt... anyway we all are happy for her!

huiyin: you really look good in this so maybe you can take time to do up too! dont lax just cos you are married... =)

my neck-shoulder hurts again and really ought to change that pillow of mine. i am tired... ending here...

foOd for ThOught

as i was making my way out of the gym in somerset walking towards thai embassy, i have came across 1. the usual indian lady selling packets of tissue paper at the traffic light junction just outside the gym and 2. an elder uncle both singing and selling packets of tissue paper (again) at the traffic light junction of Taka...
from what i see hardly anyone pays attention to them and buy the tissue paper. has it become so common to see elderly people selling tissue paper on the road that no one bothers? or have they already bought from the indian lady and thus there is no business for the old man?
while i was standing opposite the traffic light, i saw this middle-age lady shunning away from the indian lady maybe because the indian lady looks a little unkempt and somewhat "dirty"? not sure how many of you were approached by her before but she can approached me twice when i was just standing there to cross the road.
i was thinking, i can buy from the indian lady and also from the old man but how many of them can i buy from? i can help one but i can't help all, isn't it? or is this just an excuse? if there are five of them on the street of orchard road and end up buying from each of them, i would have more packets of tissue paper that can last me 2 weeks...
but anyway! that is just me set myself thinking...

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caught Fast and Furious: The Tokyo Drift last night and i tell you *WOW!* hahahaa... i like the cars especially Fairlady and also the drift! instantly you can see the "ah lianz" in me... hahaha!

i'm looking for a chinese emcee

OMG! it is so painful and difficult to find a good emcee and let alone that he/she must be effectively bilingual and is an advantage to have chinese music background! don't tell me that i have to end up doubling as an emcee myself for the show... *argh*

i am now openly looking for a chinese emcee so you happened to fit most of the criterias (i shan't be that choosy) or you think your friend does, please get them to write to me or leave a message in the shoutbox...
1. he/she must be effectively bilingual i.e. fluent in both English and Chinese (spoken and written)
2. have background in chinese music
3. have ample time to do own script
4. pleasantly looking
5. good voice