Repost: 朋友让我开始对他们失望

我最近深切地感受到朋友带给我的失望。
简单的一个聚会，在1个月前早已经放风声出去。当我发出正式的邀请时，一个个才说不能去。但起码，这些人还会回我电邮或简讯。

有些呢，连一个简讯都不会回我--是或不是、好或不好、行或不行、能或不能。就算还没办法确定至少有个基本的礼貌告诉我迟些再回我。
难道要我打电话去催再三请四请吗？为什么要有这样的坏习惯呢？能不能果断点？不是第一次了，几乎每一次都这样。我已经对这样的态度厌恶了。如果你们是如此的这样不重视，那我也无需再做任何事。因为做了也没有人会说声“谢谢”。
对于这样的态度，我已经受够了。真的够了！

我想我在这里有我自己言论的空间与自由。我把自己不高兴的事说出来罢了。你们在我背后议论着我所说的也许会伤了有些人，我无所谓。对，或许我的用词重了，难道我说错了吗？其实我只希望大家可以给对方多点基本的尊重及设身处地为对方着想－－我要的只是你们很基本的尊重而已。

但也无所谓了，我已经把它取消了。谢谢那些回复我的，而已经答应我会来的，你照样可以来。只是我没什么好招待的。

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Do unto others as you would have others do unto you

not a cutout for interviews

昨天刚刚才把两个电台访问给搞定。访问分成两天进行。星期二是英文电台，实地的到了录音室。原本以为自己已经做好了准备，但结果完全跟想象的不一样。一向来英文不怎么样的我已经很注意自己的发音和咬字，怕出丑。
起初前30分钟，录的还可以，过后却是常惨不忍睹。同样的一个段落录了又录。说话开始不清楚、结巴。唉！结果就这样，整个访问就拖了超过1个钟头。结束后，只觉得自己真是糟透了！自信心全毁了。整个人好累，精疲力尽。在回公司的路程，一句话都不想对同事讲。想到隔天还要做华文电台的访问，心里就有千万个不愿意但为了自己的节目，也是没择的事。
昨天一早便猛做翻译，希望会好一点。心想再糟也不会比昨天残吧！但也许方式不一样，所以没这么多的压力。录音访问在30分钟内就录好了。终于是松了一口大气，午餐也吃得比较轻松。
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现在是希望剪接后，听起来不会太奇怪！

2010 - reality and plan

yesterday was just chatting on msn with a girl friend and somehow we mentioned about 2010. a number that would have meant a lot to me...

2010 is about less than 4 years from now and i think many will agree with me that 4 years is not a short time at all... but that is the only time when i could possibly have any change in my life... by then, i will be 30 years old into the "3" region.

you know how you had your life plan and dream when you were young like "get a boyfriend when i am 17 yeard old, get a driving license by 18, have the first job by 22, get married by 26, have the first kid by 28, be promoted by 30, have a car... condo...." etc etc. on looking back, nothing seems to have gone according to my plan so far except that i did have my first job by 22. i had my first boyfriend on when 18, didnt have a driving license yet, am 26 this year but not married and of cos without kid too...

life is just like this, you will somehow never seems to get life to be what you want in your plans.. there will be different factors affecting your decision and your life... some wanted a child but that never come. others thought he/she is the person you are marrying, in the end, you broke up and trash all plans... for those who have it all according to plan, you are a lucky one!